Slowly Going Insane

I'm losing it.. I know it..
I don't trust ANYTHING right now.
Why should I?
He's losing so much of my faith, i have no idea what to do.
Perhaps i should have listened a long time ago.. it wouldn't have gone this far.
Oh well.

I'm excited though.
I finally have something to look forward to that doesn't involve him.
It feels good.
I'm sure i'll miss him.
"Why don't you care that you're not gonna see me for a week?"
"I know I'll see you in a couple days"



Here's something i don't understand:
why is he still so committed to making her happy?
When she's around, nothing else matters but making her happy, at all costs.
I always end up being that cost.
It's my fault.
Why do i stick around?
I don't trust him.
And everyhting i feel about him is slowly fading away... and he could care less... because it'll always be my fault.