Protecting my fragile ego

Suck it up.
You knew it was the wrong thing to do when this all started.
You let yourself care.
You let him convince you this was worth having.
You should have left when you had the chance.
You were so close.
You were a sucker for him then.
You are an even bigger sucker now.
He keeps you in his life so he doesn't seem to be that jerk.
He IS that jerk.
He used you up until he was tired of having it.
He took everything you had and now is just throwing you out.
He has gone back on every promise he's ever made.
You were stupid to believe him.
You were stupid to make those same promises.
You are stupid now for keeping them.
You know how to get over this.
You know what you have to do.
Why are you so afraid?
You loved with no return.
You loved without question.
You loved without caution.
You have no one to blame but yourself.
You gave him the power to rip you up from the inside.
You gave him the right to stop loving you.
You gave him everything he needed to get over you.
He never gave you anything.
He gave you empty promises.
He gave you bullshit excuses.
He gave you lies to appease you.
While he took everything he could get out of you.
You don't want to admit you're wrong.
You don't want to admit that i was right all along.
You don't want to admit that you're unlovable.
You don't want to admit that he doesn't want you.
You'd rather let him fake it, so you don't have to hurt.
You'd rather live in a world shrouded with denial, than to do this.
You'd rather let him fuck you to feel a sense of closeness, than to admit to the canyon between you.
You refuse to see the world ahead.
You refuse to see the bright light, shining right above you.
You'd rather cry, to garner an ounce of guilt.
You'd rather make him love you again, than to find someone who will never stop...